Always special and forever will be

Always special and forever will be.. what a DFA title for my blog..actually, i dun blog, i just ramble about stuff.. 

my birthday was like kristy said, simply amazingly awesome!..Love, flowers, cakes, gifts, phone calls and lots of smses and I mean A LOT…=)For me, the older u get, the clearer it seems to you that,its not all about the presents and gifts or a huge birthday bash..what matters to me this year?My friends and my family of course…

So yeah, that’s why my birthday this year was perfect in every way..=) 

Daryl, Chia Ching, Alan, Mark and Evelyn…the cake was good..=) 

12th June…

I’ve ransacked my mind,Bringing myself back to those moments, Looking for reasons and explanation…Questions I never dare ask,Asking myself over and over again,Is it worth it?If so, why does it hurt so much?Frustration and disappointment never felt this disheartening…

Daydreams and fantasies are free..i would begin to spin the reel in my head whenever i am bored, which was pretty much most of the time, if i am honest… so thats why, i am very much attached to my emotional feelings…tho i have all the time to think, but i feel very restricted sometimes…maybe God is trying to teach me something, maybe i’m placed in someone else’ life to learn about their ups and downs..that way, i can love ppl more, well, reasonably la..

i am a shy extrovert…love to be with others but yet, cant stand being in the lime light most of the time…

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love

 I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

 All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

From  -Music and Lyrics-

p.s: Super nice song to listen to when u feel terrible…

One Response to “Always special and forever will be”

  1. shy “cough cough”

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