Rambling mess

My weekend was a quiet one. Was at Cameron with my parents and their cg members. It was very natural for me to be with the uncles and aunties since this weren’t our first outing together. They are like family to me since young. So when my mum told me about this I just agreed to go without hesitating. Those 3 days there were like I said, quiet. Just the cool wind, flowers, and of course, that caretaker’s dog, Ricky. He was kind enough to come and sit with me while I do my quiet time. Great time enjoying God’s creativity.

I was and still am suffering from fatigue. I get tired easily though I did not do anything the whole day and my appetite has gone down the drain again. Leaving me feeling nauseas everytime I see food. I should be okay but I think I just need to do some exercise. Now I am feeling tired again. Wish I had the energy to post up some photos from the Cameron trip here.

My scrapbook project has been ‘tergendala’ for a moment. To be honest, many things had happened recently and that really blocked all my inspiration but I promised my sis that I will make something out of my aus trip since we have a lot of pretty photos from there. They are all coming back together this march so I am anticipating one huge family reunion once they touch down =)More photos together and i hope that could reignite my passion for scrapbooking =P

Thanks for your comment. I almost wanted to do something stupid by writing something childish on my blog about a person till I read your comment. Sometimes in the midst of our upset-ness, we are bound to make unnecessary mistakes. Something I am learning this season, that is to control your tongue and your thoughts.

A lot of things have been happening in my family. I am really worked out but in some ways I have the peace because I know God’s timing is divine.  Everything is alright at the moment but there is this deep sense of distress in me. Peace and distress? How contradicting =P. All I can do now is just pray. I pray that God will always protect and keep my bro and sis in law safe as they are in India right now. A super dangerous place to be at times like these. My sister’s pregnancy as she is quite fragile and weak plus my bro in law’s huge decision over something. Last but definitely not the least, my dad’s business. I guess it is time already and my dad was supposed to retire years ago. I just pray that the Lord will continue to watch over us and provide us with the things that we need.

Aargh, emotional turmoil. Sometimes i wonder if I am i disappointed with God. Go read Job then you will understand this feelings. i dont know how things are going to be like for my parents once I leave for Kl this march. Actually I have no idea how things are going to be like for me too. All these also reminded me that there are far doleful things than the loss of something dear to me. Although over and over again, I mention to people how that magnifies me feeling like a failure but I can poignantly say that, “It is well with my soul”. I guess I just have to leave all these before the Throne of God and let time subsides everything. Endurance is not just the ability to bear a hard thing but to turn it to glory (William Barclay). Let’s just hope I don’t die trying.

5 Responses to “Rambling mess”

  1. We can’t control the circumstances in our lives but we can choose to trust God who is in control of all our circumstances. May you be encouraged by this prayer of F.B. Meyer:

    Thou knowest, Lord, how often I am sorely let and hindered in running the race which is set before me. May Thy bountiful grace and mercy come to my help, that I may finish my course with joy, and receive the crown of life. AMEN.

    From all our life’s circumstances, let us turn once more to Jesus and wait on Him….

    God bless you!

  2. Hey girl.. i guess there’s just one thing God wants u to know right now, and this is it.. you will come out of this victorious!

    and as for me, I know it’s not easy having gone through a break up myself. Give back to God what is not yours, and He will see to it that you have the best. Just trust Him and trust Him wholeheartedly.. and when I mean wholeheartedly, i meannnn WHOLEheartedly!

    Ping me in MSN if you need someone to talk to ok: cherlschu@yahoo.com

  3. hey bee,
    I know who F.B meyer is =)
    Thanks for the prayer and also for thinking of me.

    Matthew 6:25
    For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? “Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to to his life?

    so true =)

  4. helo cheryl =)
    How are things on your side? My side? when it rains, it pours!
    but God is good right? and you are right, we will come out victorious. We should continue to remind each other about trusting God wholeheartedly because sometimes its easier said than done =P

    So, I will definitely look u up on msn!=)
    thanks again =)

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