Archive for April, 2010

It is well with my soul.

Posted in Random but yet significant on April 10, 2010 by jiunnli

I wanted to ask God so many things. There may not be an answer to all my questions and albeit, there were times where things are obvious, it took me awhile to come to the same conclusion. For someone who has good navigation skill, I kinda suck, working with God,  on deciding in my life’s direction.

And then I come across a photo. I realized a photo is all you need to bring back a flood of memories and the overwhelming feelings of yesteryears. I took a good look again at the picture, going back to the time we took it. I’ve seen how I’ve grown. I’ve seen how things have changed. My smile was different. I looked different. I was  quickly reminded also of the good times and the bad. And I’ve come to accept, that girl was me. No matter how hard I try, I cannot change what has been done.

This is when I ask myself. . .this is painful but is it well with my soul?

and the answer, yes, indeed it is. . . if nothing else, knowing it is all in my God’s control.

You were there

Posted in My God, my all on April 7, 2010 by jiunnli

I wonder how it must have felt
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until You took his hand, and held on tight

‘Cause You were there, You were there
In the midst of danger’s snare
You were there, You were there always
You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there, You were always there
You were always there

So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans
And just in time, You brought a lamb

‘Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there, you were there always
You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there, You were always there
You were always there

So haven’t I learned that my ways
Aren’t as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You
There You were

Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath

You were there, You were there
During history’s darkest hour
You were there, You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David’s swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be
the Risen Lamb of God

You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

You are the God who understands. Forgive me when I thought you don’t.

Standing on the terracotta tile

Posted in Random but yet significant on April 6, 2010 by jiunnli

Staring blankly at the screen, I was reminded why I’ve stopped blogging for months. No inspiration. Nothing. Well I do have a million of things to say. Looking at my blogstats,  I am impressed and  evenmore encouraged to write something now. The fact that some of you guys out there are still visiting my blog (despite months of not updating them.).Let me see if I can come up with something really interesting or at least entertaining for you guys. Hmmm, how am i going to do that.

Things have been crazie for me eversince  I ended my internship early Feb. I’ve been busy till today! ( Actually, truth be told, I wasn’t supposed to blog because I am in the midst of a few major assignments, ALL DUE NEXT WEEK!). I’ve had the aweseome-mest of the awesome-mest CNY celebration this year at home. I don’t know why it was such good times for most of us. I guess as we grow older, our priorities shifted and we began to appreciate the time we have with each other. Family of friends, none of these will go wrong.

Friends. I spend a great deal of time with my friends in this season of my life. Endless lunch and dinner appointments. Birthdays after birthdays. Great time versus Bad times. Love, hate and all that matters. You know who you are. Thank you for being just there for me and give to me endlessly. I just don’t know what I’ll do without you guys. Godsent ‘pillars’ of support that have been nothing but of great encouragement. Although I have very different cliques of friends, but do know that I love each and everyone of you very much.

I agreed to a wedding project. A friend of a friend saw my blog and she loved my creation and wanted to engage in my services. I was pleased of course! I mean, someone out there actually trusted me with her wedding card invitation and before I could agree, I vowed to myself that I am going come up with something totally out of the world for her. It was tough I tell you, to start finalizing all the details because the sky is my limit. I almost gave up as I come up with several mock designs. I am so glad the bride is very particular with particulars! This means, when she finally like a design I did, I know she truly truly loves it!(Amazing girl she is). Anyway, fast forward it all, I finished about 70 cards last sunday! I was on the roll mann. . . and gosh, the feeling was huuuuuuuuge! Seeing all the cards all arranged in a row,  tied with pretty pink ribbons and their embellishments, wow, I din know someone could actually feel this contented!

Despite my neckache, every part of me is itching to dance again ( I am finally scheduled to serve in May. Woot! ) and again, DESPITE my neckache, I agreed to a netball tournament end of this month. sigh.I don’t know what else I want to do because there are just too many things in life that I want to get my hands on. I wanna travel ( gosh this is so generic but yes i will do abit of travelling this july. . .hint: australia?), I want to adopt a puppy (equally generic), and I want to have my own business (hey, this is new) but bottom line is, I really wanted to do so much more than I thought I could.

. . . . .I paused and took another deep breath and ponder abit about the purpose of me getting so busy in life. I know there is more to this as I look forward to each day, everytime I wake up from my bed. I have long thought that the very best insight into what it means to feel all these is to simply consider what is God’s purpose for me and getting to know what is it in His heart. Having saying all these, I just wanna thank Him for all the opportunities that come by my life. The good and the bad, the great and the not-so-great, the pain and the gain, I will always be reminded to praise Him. There are some things that I cannot change and I have to learn to embrace it. I know my past is part of me and sometimes it is not a bad thing. . . sometimes it is really not.

This, I have to accept.

I am a promise of all that’s to come.