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Posted in . . .from my journal., My God, my all on August 30, 2010 by jiunnli

Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, “Wait.”

“Wait? you say wait?” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.

“My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

“You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, “Wait.”
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting for what?”

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

“I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.

“You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

“You’d never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

“The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I’m doing in you.

“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait.”

Weddings; Not because, but just because.

Posted in Inspiring on August 25, 2010 by jiunnli

I am in the midst of doing my assignment when I re-read my cousin’s comment on me being a wedding-lover. I paused. You know how some issues or subjects, you raise and address them because they rise to the top of your thinking and you cannot resist that deep compulsion in your heart about them. Initially I see that she had quite a sharp observation but now i find the need to explain myself.

Feeling totally justified at the moment, I have to admit I really do love weddings.

Music filled the air, the chapel was drowned with beautiful sweet smelling flowers of all kinds, guests and family members rose as the bride walked in with her magnificent white gown, some looking overly expensive for their tiny budget. She took little steps accompanied by the sound of any musical instruments towards her husband to be. Each steps brought her closer to the biggest decision she ever made in her life and sometimes I wonder if the veil was there for a reason, probably to cover the her face if she contemplates if she should finish her journey up the aisle.  Jokes aside, at this point of time, this is when I think wedding is most beautiful and meaningful to me. No kidding. It was then I asked myself what is it meant to be a man and wife, what does it mean to love and honor each other, how did they meet, when did they decide to get married, how was their proposal like and finally, does the wedding  truly reflect much they love each other? What if this is just a scam?Certainly there must be a loophole. They must have  loved each other, well. . .  .enough to even make such crazy decision!!

But have you really thought  of what it all really meant beneath the exterior symbolism and the ritual and what about the vows? Don’t they mean anything to you?

It is the solemnity of the occasion that I took comfort in, their utmost happiness that I count on and the couple’s promising future and a whole new life together is what I hope they look forward to the moment they walk out of the church.  I was once convinced that weddings are very much like a show but until you come to know and understand what wedding truly meant to God, one would see wedding in a very different light because often time they forget that wedding it is a gift, it is a blessing.

Quoted from ‘I, Isaac, take thee Rebekah’; That we may find our hearts enthralled by the truths we uncover and our minds stirred to think of this union in God’s way and not ours. Showing us what goes behind the scenes in the making of a beautiful relationship, and some of the most important decisions before we utter those words of commitment to someone else.

Weddings; If this was all a veneer or is this one of God’s greatest agenda.

Love may not necessarily be all it takes =)

Goodnight =)

I know what love is

Posted in Inspiring, My God, my all on August 17, 2010 by jiunnli

I know what love is because You first loved me

I know what love is because I’ve seen it in You

I know what love is because despite it all, I still choose to.

I know what love is because at the end of the day, I only want to forgive.

I know what love is because its meaning is incomprehensible

but I know what love is

because You first loved me.