totally random, unquestionably hungry

i am hungry!!
aaarrrghhh….
waiting for my parents to finish their soap opera =(
For one second i thought i heard my stomach crying out for food..=(

I dont eat much u know..
for example:-

Doreen and I eat alot of KFC.
Everytime, she manage to swallow 3 pieces of chicken back to back, but i can barely finish my first piece.
Yup,thats it.
Different stomach capacities i guess..

i usually eat one meal a day..
but for people like,alan, daryl, cc and alston they usually stop after their 5th meal (i blame that 1.30am nasi lemak! =p)
i often skip breakfast, which i probably shouldnt because, yes they are the most important meal of the day…
hmm lunches..sometimes i forgot bout them..
i’ll neva miss dinner of course..=)
so since i am moving out to KL, in like, less than 12 days???
i think i am going to suffer more out there..
not all all excited,
not at all looking forward to it..=(

p/s: I am still hungry =(

Just alittle something….

I wrote this email to a friend, and i thought,why dont i just share it with the rest of the world, or at least those who are in MY world.. =)

To all my friends out there, thank you for your love, care and support.Dont know what i’ll  do without u guys =)

Here it goes…

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you know,

i was reading Judges these few days..

so i came across the story of Gideon yesterday…God impressed in my mind of the account of Gideon and the Isrealites in Judges 6:13…Gideon wasnt a very famous man in the bible as compared to David and many others…

But in Gideon, God takes a weak and humble guy to do His great works…

After the prophet had convicted Israel, God begins the deliverance.The angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon.But he asks a good question –”If the Lord is with Israel, how come all this bad stuff has happened?’ .He had so many doubts.But God still wanted Gideon to deliver Isreal.However, Gideon wasnt feeling to great himself because his clan is the weakest in Manasseh and he is the least significant in his family..and God just asnwered, ” i will be with you..”

 

God is good.At times like these, i have my doubts as well.God put me trought form6 and gosh, it was damn difficult last 2 years.I will question God the same thing, If lord u are with me, how come all these are happening to me? How come i do not get to do architecture?why Business?Finance? Commerce?But because , I believe this is what God has already planned for me, He reassured me again. I understand exactly how Gideon felt when he said his clan is the weakest in Manasseh and he is the most insignificant in his family.As for me, i am very afraid of the subjects outlined.GOsh, how am i going to do accounts, Econs, management?all this are so foreign and scary to me.I feel like running away at some point when i know i need to take up all these subjects.But God certainly has confirmed things with me and he just asnwered me with one simple sentence, ” I will be with you.”

 

 

 

You see, just by telling us He will be with us is all that we should ever need to know.Like the verse u shared with me in 2 Corinthians 3:5, we shouldnt focus too much on our inadequacies.Worst, it shouldnt stop us from being obedient to the Lord.At times we are weak and weary, knowing that we are incompetent and that we could strive to do better till we often forget that our competence comes from God.riight?

 

 

Back to the Midianites, do u know that Midian actually stands for ‘strive’?They have been opressing God’s people for 7 years.As for both of us, God will always use the ‘strive’ of Midian to bring his people to the place of weakness so that they will totally rely on God and His grace. good?

 

 

U ask me how come i could get over all this so quickly…i would say, first of all, i have no choice and whateva my family planned for me, i think its for my best..my sis and my bro in law are very wise people..i dont think they come out of the blue and just plan things for me.I believe they have consulted the Lord b4 they even proposed anything..but the most important reason why i could just pull myself together, is because God has given me the peace and i really wanna trust Him that He will bring many good things along this path He has paved for me..=)

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yeah, things are alittle difficult for me at first..  plans were made and i was so excited with the whole idea untill i was so full of myself and werent listening at all..Things changed from day to day and i should’ve have known that sometimes something in life cannot be planned.

I got this from from ‘Planning and Decision-making: A biblical perspective’

“… human planning without the spirit of God leading in the planning leads to presumptions, failure and disappointment..”

“…Total dependence is a humbling dependence on Him day-by-day.God is tearing apart the plans of many men and women today because He wants to rebuild them in the way they operate in life and work.He wants total dependence upon Him, not just an occasional prayer of guidance…”

going to make full use of my last 3 weeks back here in sitiawan… =)