A promise is a promise

Romans 3:3

“True, some of them were unfaithful; but just because they broke their promises, does that mean God will break His promises? Of course not! Though everyone in the world is a liar, God is true’.

So many had recently ask me about my life’s direction. Do i look like I am lost or something??heehee! I probably gave them a satisfactory answer because I feel my answers are perfectly crafted out and it spells out nothing but amazing.  Deep down, it is my truest desire nonetheless if you were one of them who asked. Sometimes I also  feel like going away just like that (without graduating), leaving everything behind and go to a place where I can do all the things i love. without a hint of responsibility. However, the thought of hurting my parents stop me from fantasizing further. I thank God nevertheless for he sees the desires of our heart and i know at least someone is interested in my desires as well. It may not be part of His will for me but I would really consider this a privilege where I am given the freedom to think about where i wanna go away next time, to a place where they have beautiful green parks just for me to roll around =)

Everything will be made beautiful in His time =)

Tonight is quite a difficult night for me. As i sit here looking back at my computer screen, there is this pain in me that i would feel occasionally but tonight, i let it linger abit longer than usual before i finally shut it off.

I must avoid thinking of going away each time I’m put in a difficulty. Our God is a faithful and i am no coward.

Our fulfillment should come when God is glorified, not when we are glorified.

Our joy should come when God’s purposes are met, not when our purposes are met.

I brought this upon myself but I know God has my back. I am going to be fine =)

Something about you, makes me smile =)

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Yay! i finally succumb to the temptation of fulfilling my friends request to answer these 50 questions about myself. I am really bored and nothing have been going on in school yet. Its pretty interesting, you actually  get to know more about yourself too! =P

To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your title as “Getting to know each other!”, tag 25 people including me!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
9.26am

2. How do you like your steak?
they need to be real cooked!

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Transformers2

4. What is your favorite TV show?
CSI and House

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

Australia or the states
6. What did you have for breakfast?
Did not have any

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
As of now, Italian.

8. What foods do you dislike?
Anything that has got to do with pork

9. Favorite Place to Eat?
Anywhere with great ambience

10. Favorite dressing?
Clean, simple and classy

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
I don’t own a car yet

12. What are your favorite clothes?
Short pants a must, tho (like sharon) i am also obsessed with buying dresses!=P

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Rome, Boston and Liverpool.

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
I’m a ‘half full’ person =)

15. Where would you want to retire?
Never really thought of that yet. Maybe i should.

16. Favourite time of day?
Anytime, as long as i am doing something i love =)

17. Where were you born?
I love sitiawan!

18. What is your favourite sport to watch?
Football at the moment

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
Those who don’t even bother

20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
anyone

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
could be anyone =)

22. Bird watcher?
Not a bird person either

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?

Night person!!yea!!

24. Do you have any pets?
Used to have dogs, want to own a dog and will only own dogs.

25. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share?
Ermm, hopefully soon!!=)
26. What did you want to be when you were little?
Architecture- not sure its worth going back to this dream.

air stewardess-I still wanna give it a try lor =P
27. What is your best childhood memory?
I used to like watching some old chinese drama with my grandpa after kindergarden while waiting for my mum to come home from school. I still remember the show, its the Butterfly Lovers. Couples started singing some really high pitched song with fake butterflies flying around=P

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
Please refer to question 24 =)

29. Are you married
Nope.

30. Always wear your seat belt?
No, the drivers have to annoyingly remind me each time.

31. Been in a car accident?
Can’t quite remember.

32. Any pet peeves?
the smell of damp clothes that weren’t completely dry and bad body odour

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
Anything to do with Tuna, and lots of cheese.

34. Favorite Flower?
Lisianthus at the moment, used to adore daisies.

35. Favorite ice cream?
Dont like ice-cream =)

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
McD!

37. How many times did you fail your driver’s test?
Passed the very first time.

38. From whom did you get your last email?
Mike Gong!!=)

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Topshop, Forever 21, Zara and or shops with fabulous dresses, plus any scrapbooking material shops and oh, not forgetting Longchamp!

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
went drinking without really thinking of how to pay for them and what happens if i get drunk again.

41. Like your job?
studying??oh best job ever! looking forward to the 3 months break end of this year.

42. Broccoli?
nothing against it.

43. What was your favorite vacation?
My last trip to Australia, tho i’ve always loved Brunei and Hong kong with family.

44 Last person you went out to dinner with?
Yi zheng, alvin and my darling eve!

45. What are you listening to right now?
incoming sms tone from my handphone

46. What is your favorite color?
Grey, pink and tangerine orange

47. How many tattoos do you have?
Low tolerance for pain and i don’t think my mum would appreciate the sight of it.

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
I don’t know. Maybe i wont. I think they have something better to do =P

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
Doesnt matter right?

50. Coffee Drinker?
Every now and then.

All in A Day’s fun. . .

All seasons are beautiful for the person who carries happiness within

The happiness that is genuinely satisfying is accompanied by the fullest exercise of our faculties and the fullest realization of the world in which we live. (Bertrand Russell)

a friend, who made all this happened. Thank you for a beautiful day =)

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Sing I love you so

beautiful. . .

It used to be darkness
Without you I
I lived my life in blindness
But now I am found

And I’ll sing, sing I love you so
And I’ll sing
Because the world can’t take away
Your love

Found me in weakness
Broken
You came to me in kindness
And now I live

I’ll give my life for you Lord
For all you’ve done

Hillsong- United live

More than life

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More than just a mini skirt. . .

I was browsing for ways to wear a short mini skirt. I have one that is shamefully short and i cannot step out of the house without feeling like somebody is peeking from underneath. Its alright to be alil careful since you are revealing a large chunk of your body.I cringe when I see girls wearing mini skirts wrong and i definitely do not want to end up looking anything close to slutty; a mini can be classy when worn correctly.

Before i even realised it, i started browsing for wedding dresses! Woah!!  Somebody once told me, we don’t choose the dress and no, the dress doesn’t choose us either.

We just meet our dresses, like how we just met our men adding that, there is a dress, somewhere out there, waiting for you.

Putting on the right dress is like falling in love all over again.  I, however, have in my mind what sort of dress i would wanna wear on my big day. Hey, who said a young girl cant dream alil. I can feel the overexcitement rising within me as more wedding dresses appear on my screen.  Seeing all these beautiful things, I might just fall dead.

I honestly don’t want a hugeass wedding. It takes me awhile to really understand what defines a  good wedding and of course, the learning doesnt stop here. Its definitely not the dress you are wearing, or the hideous make up your make up artist puts on you thinking that she has done the best job so far and forgive your bridesmaids as they are  just doing their job, telling you that you look like a gem when non of them are actually convinced. Its not about the people your parents are inviting, who knows how many unknown faces come up to you during the reception.  It is also not about the spectacular flower arrangement, cascading light pink and purple lisianthus and the most beautiful 10 tier cake from the best baker in town and gosh! whoever says that you need to walk down the aisle to the sound of a string orchestra?

It can be alil overwhelming at the end so to me, a wedding is nothing but a show. What do i have in mind? A small, intimate romantic wedding will do, where i can move around freely attending to my guest who are made up of my loved ones, close friends and relevant family members. Good food and great music are mandatory of course and there is just one thing that i will never compromise,

wedding photography! =)

check this website out:

http://www.elizabethmessina.com/

http://www.kissthegroom.com/

Photos from kissthegroom.com

I bet God likes weddings too since there is this emphasis on the relationship between His son and the church. In the bible context, weddings are sometimes rarely associated to the coming together of a man or a woman. We are supposed to look at marriage and see the demonstration of an intimate relationship between Christ and the church. God often describe His relationship with his people by choosing marriage as a significant illustration throughout the old testament.  God doesn’t compromise when it comes to His commitment towards His people. Hence, this makes Him the ultimate reference point in a marriage.

Now, do you still think a wedding is all about searching for that one beautiful white dress or how beautiful your wedding turn out in photographs?

Think again =)

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When i look in the mirror

“When I look in the mirror and the only one there is me
Every freckle on my face is where it’s suppose to be
And I know my creator didn’t make no mistakes on me
My feet, my thighs, my Lips, my eyes, I’m loving what I see

Am I less of a lady if I don’t wear panty hose?
My momma said a lady ain’t what she wears but what she knows…
But I’ve drawn the conclusion, it’s all an illusion
Confusion’s the name of the game
A misconception, a vast deception,
Something got to change

Now don’t be offended this is all my opinion
Ain’t nothing that I’m saying law
This is a true confession
Of a life learned lesson
I was sent here to share with y’all
So get in when you fit in
Go on and shine
Clear your mind
Now’s the time
Put your salt on the shelf
Go on and love yourself
‘Cause everything’s gonna be alright”

India Arie

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Sheesh, another chic lit.

I love reading chic lit.  Not very appealing in a way, and shallow in many other ways.

But despite its bimbotic (sometimes) illustration on the front cover. . .

loved it =)

you’ll be surprised to find that the book is more than just a weekend read =)

never judge a book by its cover.

The New York Times bestselling author of SOMETHING BORROWED, SOMETHING BLUE, and BABY PROOF delivers another captivating, straight-from-the heart novel. This is a story for everyone who has ever wondered: How can I truly love the one I’m with, when I can’t forget the one who got away?

Ellen and Andy’s marriage doesn’t just seem perfect, it is perfect. There is no question how deep their devotion is, and how naturally they bring out the best in each other. But one fateful afternoon, Ellen runs into Leo for the first time in eight years. Leo, the one who brought out the worst in her. Leo, the one who left her heartbroken with no explanation. Leo, the one she could never quite forget. When his reappearance ignites long-dormant emotions, Ellen begins to question whether the life she’s living is the one she’s meant to live. LOVE THE ONE YOU’RE WITH is a powerful story about one woman at the crossroads of true love and real life.

This book demonstrate more than just what a chic lit could offer.

Delicious =)

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My fiasco

You know you are  getting really bored when you start playing all those mindjolt games on FB. I’ve been doing a lot of catching up these few days. I seriously think life is too short to not make a point to meet up with your girlfriends and see how they are doing in their lives, tho i am mentally and emotionally drained, but in a way where its so fulfilling that you’d think that this is one of the (few) best thing you’ve ever done with your time.

After what seemed like a long time, i am glad our relationship with one another was more than just surviving. There are people, places and events that lead to where we are, people, places and events that we’d prefer to forget or at least pretend to forget for awhile over but in the end, you can slap a pretty label over all our life experiences- like fate. Its how we play the cards life has dealt us, each in our separate lives and how things have worked out for some of us.

But something i read somewhere, no matter how we each potray ourselves, it seems that every relationship has two stories- the edited one to be shared with each other over some rich-brewed, Italian-styled expresso or the unedited one- best not go there. Its not that we are putting up a front with each other, or maybe i was alil bit to be honest. Please forgive me.

I inhale sharply as i continue to think of many unanswered questions in a philosphical sense (my morning sinus is really getting from bad to worst). Not that i spend my every waking moment thinking of serious stuff, in fact, i don’t quite. Anyway, sitting here with my satin pJ pants (which i really adore as these were specially tailor made for me by my mum), there is this void in me that I haven’t been feeling for a very long time. I don’t know if i truly comprehend exactly what i am feeling right now but i consider the possibility that there is something wrong with me. It wasn’t shown on the surface of course and maybe others are probably not aware of it, yet =).

Its Saturday again. The 27th week of 2009. This first half of 2009 has really been a roller coaster ride for me but I realised that I was never in the ride alone.  There were people who jumped right in with me from the start of the ride and with that, i am truly grateful. I wouldn’t have come so far if it weren’t for all of you. Although i cringe every time i think back to how complacent i was or have become in the things i used to find refuge in.  Was the whole fiasco disappointing? Initially it was, very, but now, I think i am more concern about how painful it will be to put on some metalscrap into my mouth when i go back to sitiawan =S.

shit, braces. I will still proceed on this crazy idea if i could gather sufficient courage to even drive to the dentist. Aih, just get over and done with it laa.

I am beginning to love the sound of the airplanes again. This means alot to me. Somethings are better left unchanged (Don’t know why i suddenly picture Russel Peter saying this with his fake chinese accent! haha!!).

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Soliloquize

I was never good at saying something i really mean. I always say the opposite of what i actually mean, and that causes more complication when i want the other person to get what i actually mean through the things that i don’t really mean.

I talk to God today. Thank you, i said to Him. He is that one person who knows exactly what my thoughts are whether or not i make sense to Him. All i need is a little more of this.

Is it okay to get mad at God sometimes?

something sweeet =)

If i could, i would name today, ‘Blessings day’!

Why? (duhhh, my finals over adi ma =P )

anyway,

First, i started my morning with this super amazing news from a dear friend of mine. Yes, i am really honored to hear this piece of good news from you and i am glad you are okay. Thank you for always checking on me and thank you for reminding me that god really is all around and he can’t wait to bless us. I am planning on giving you guys a surprise visit soon and I will continue  to keep you and your hubby in prayer always =)

Then i went to see ms woo because she also does scrapbooking and she was showing me some of her collection. Super inspired after seeing all her works. I was like, what have i been doing with all my blardy expensive materials i bought from Aus?? Ish, i shouldnt let my hobby just die off like that. I will embark on new projects i promise! heehee! but seriously lor, i’ve learnt so many tips about scrapbooking today. TIme to put these tips into use!

Met up with my childhood bestfriend today finally!!! what to do, medic student. They dont really have time for you. She also brought her other best friend with her, name Pris and gosh,  i love her. We clicked almost instantly and the next thing we know, we can’t stop talking and when we got tired of talking, we went around 1U snapping crazy photos. Honestly, i havent been doing any crazy stuff lately and boy, it feels so good to let it all out today. Today was awesome dear =). Oh yeah, thanks for the 45 photos you tagged me on facebook ( i know we would love the hat shots in Zara if  we were quick enough to actually take them before the salesgirl came and reprimanded us! heehee!). Waiting for more photos from pris’ camera. So happy to meet pris and your other special friend =P

Some of the few shots i love =)

my childhood besties, Ada mei!

I really can't believe we did that!

One of our favourite photo of the day!

. . .and then we went and terrorize Zara!

Good shot Kelvin! =)

After dinner, Debbie came and pick me up from 1u and we went dessert hunting. well, it wasn’t really a hunt la. We just drove to Uptown and decided to have cupcakes at WonderMilk! oooohh i really love this place. The moment i walked in, i felt like a child all over again.  The cupcakes were all so colourful and i so wanted to taste each of them. I am definitely coming back  here again! It was soooooo nice talking to you debbie and thanks for the books. Lets continue to keep each other in prayers. Will see you this weekend =)

Wondermilk Cupcakes, Uptown Pj

debbie's strawberry cupcake

Red cupcakes! remember, we used to bake these too? but of course, theirs turn out nicer and they could sell it for rm4.50 per cupcakes =P

blissss

Lots of memories to keep from today and more to come in the future!

Next stop: Operation Midvalley, christytron and bangsar!=)

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