Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
And crowned with love
When I see Him, I shall be made like Him
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
I’ll be going to the place He has prepared for me
Then my sin erased, my shameful garden
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I’ll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon
See the procession
The angels and the elders round the thrown
At His feet I lay
My grant, my wishing
Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I’ll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him
My heart knows Him well
Jesus Christ the Lamb, the Lord of heaven

I will be with the One I love
With unveiled face I’ll see Him
There my soul with be satisfied
Soon and very soon

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And there You are, again.

Driving has been a drag lately. On federal,it takes an hour to work and an hour home! =(Tonight, while driving home, I was feeling all emo again. Looking at the massive jam ahead of me causes me to feel more home sick than ever. The heart is troubled.

It was then God revealed something that has bothered me for awhile. Something that has been running through my mine over and over again. All life’s ‘what ifs’, ‘could bes’ and ‘why nots’ were flooding my thoughts. Maybe I was rushing into things again. Could all my unanswered questions be resolved today?

. . .but all I hear over all my fears, was His voice. Reassuring me and comforting me.

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me”

In this life I will stand through my joy and my pain. Knowing there’s a greater day and there’s a hope that never fails. I just got to wait patiently and with great faith, trust in Him.

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it’s been a while. a very long long while. and truth be told, i may have just left well enough alone.This week that has started is going to be my first busiest week in 2010. I’ve got datelines and difficult target to meet. My expectations are highly uncorrelated with my effort put in and I am so tired of catching up at work because there are just too many things to do. Angst, worry, anxiety and unrest are possibly just a few of the related feelings from the accumulation of events. They will go away eventually. This is what happens when my priorities are shifted immensely and some adjustment are needed to be made.

ergh,I don’t even know what I am feeling right now.

much love, Jiunnli

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Glorious

Glorious and Beautiful

So beautiful, so serene. This is my Wednesday morning.

And His glory appears, like the light from the sun

Age to age He shines

Look to the skies

Hear the angels cry

Singing holy is the Lord.

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No New Year Resolution.

Leaving behind what should be left behind.

Its the 4th day into the start of a new decade. Nothing much has changed but I know my heart did from these couple of tumultuous months. Stronger I have been, tougher I have gotten, more sensible I hope to become. I may not yet be the women God has intended me to be but I hope I am on the right track.

God places and removes things in our lives. This is how my 2009 has been. Its a blessing that He gives, but consider it a double blessing when He takes away. Our God is an awesome God and because we cannot fathom His ways, bear in mind that His intentions for us are always good and He always has our best interest in mind.

I have no new year resolution, but I only have one prayer, that God help me to be a better person, a better women, than I am today.

My 2009 may not have started well but I know I ended it well four days ago.

Thank You for Your grace.

May you fill your 2010 with lots of love, joy and hope as you begin your whole new journey together with God.

Much love,

Jiunnli

♥

6 more weeks to go! =(

OK!  Quick! A short update. Nobody’s back from lunch yet.

Hows my internship, many of you would ask.

1. Blisters, lots of them due to my new black heels. Now i am wearing flats.WITH A SKIRT?!!! =(

2. Lots of friends. But abit intimidated la in a way because most of them are graduating from a string of prestigious universities in Aus (da interns i mean). Thank God for this new friend I made in my department. His name is T T. He is going to be an aerospace engineer. Currently studying in University of New South Wales.

3. Great people who really know what they are doing.

4.Not so great people who also know what they are doing.

5. Backache. Had to stare at the computer all day long. I am doing pretty technical stuff.

6. Dry eyes. Again, too much of staring into the computer screen.

7. A lot of driving. But good thing the distance is bearable.

8. Thinking of what to wear each morning is very frustrating.

9. Coming home (each time) feeling like you never slept for days. I even slept in the middle of talking to Raf.

10. and finally, the feeling of contentment and knowing that good experiences are not necessarily easy to earn. So is money.

Accenture’s Headquarters in KLCC;

Accenture Headquarters in KLCC

The main entrance

66th floor

I got really bored.

. . .and took a picture of myself!

In Menara TM?our clients place.

the office

Lots of chocolate to eat. . .

A sad looking lil christmas tree on the other end of the office

My friend TT and the other girl,my senior Yuen Kit (super smart ppl)

cannot resist taking a photo of us. Notice he is abit shy! =D

The interns meet for lunch. Thats Ben at the end.

Anisha, left Accenture after a week. First case in the whole history of Accenture's Interns Employment.

the best part? driving home each day =)

Work is crazy, no doubt, but I like being where i am right now. Can’t wait to go home tomorrow!

Happy holidays!=)

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Of brownies and cupcakes. . .

Holiday season. . .tired. . .out of breath. . .

My to do list for this week is preeeety manic.

At work-I am so flustered everything I come home from work. In fact, all I want to do is just retire to my bed and pray for a good night rest. Not that I havent been sleeping, its just that, every morning I wake up to some really intense pain in my back and around my neck area. Must be the pillows. Anyway, work is crazy. I am just doing my internship. I cannot imagine how things are going to be like when I actually step into the working world. I decided I should forgo all my dreams and marry an old fat rich man, stay home and live happily ever after in one of the little suburb in Sydney. . . . .JUST KIDDING! =D

At home-Laundry needs help. Need to stock up on groceries. I wanna eat french toast! A friend just taught me how! Maybe I will try making it under the supervision of my mum when i go back this weekend! YES! I am going home this weekend! Can’t wait to taste that christmas butter cookies my mum has baked ( I think she did). We used to bake together all the time and this has been the tradition since until I left for KL.

My finances- I don’t know where and how I’ve spent my money. All i know is that, I keep spending and spending on things I hardly see. Btw, do you know that I eat alot? I think I spend too much on food! I am getting fatter by the day judging from how uncomfortable I feel when I wear my tight jeans. Well, they are getting really tight right now. I think my other problem is that I cannot resist food.  I need to do some running. Looking at my working hours,  it is even more impossible to exercise.

My closet-Just bought a very stylish casual blazer from Kit Min. Check out her new online webpage here at  3cups of Love. When I come back to KL after christmas, I will probably invest in a very nice grey pants that comes with a grey vest (very much inspired by Angela) and a black skirt =).

In my craft world-to be honest, I havent actually started doing my christmas cards. I am too tired to even lift up a scissors. I need to be inspired. This is bad. Anyway, as much as I am ‘wasted’, I will come up with some thing for your viewing pleasure. Its probably easier than I think. Perhaps I just have to make the first cut but do check out my other website, Joielorraine, from time to time =). Oh yeah, my brother just made my day when he told me how much he likes my new website!

my friends- I finally met a very close friend of mine who came back to do his internship in PWC. We’ve been friends for ages (last 7-8years) but this is the first time that we actually spend time together. Thank for you the cupcakes and the brownies and also the early christmas present. I like it.

Last sunday, I came to realised that God has really big plans for me as He places  different people in my life  for the past few months. It is truly a blessing seeing how God works through the care  and love my friends have displayed. I realised, indeed, this is something to be so thankful for. It is your friendship that makes life even more beautiful. You guys have made loads of differences in my life from the very start. Lets have more lunch and dinner appointments. I’ve always enjoyed making making lunch or dinner plans.

My walk with God- Working takes up so much of my time and energy that I spend so little time with God and the bible. Will work on the momentum.

Looking back at these 12 months, this year was and is very special to me because where I’ve found my first love in God again. Lots of heartaches but it is all worth it. Lots of pain, but without its existence, I will never come to know God’s joy and peace.

So many times I failed as His daughter, but His love is so amazing and so impossible to grasp that I sometimes cannot believe that I have a God who loves me THISSSSS MUCH! *expanding both my hands way from each other in the air*

In my ministry-Had an awesome time worshiping God last weekend togther with the worship team. Love that song that I was assigned to choreograph, ‘Glorious One’. Its such a powerful song that I sometime think that it is quite an honor to take up the task of choreographing this song. Oh btw, did i mention that this song is one of the 7 songs that have been written by our very own people in DUMC. Isn’t that amazing? and we are going to launch our new album on our 30th Anniversary this 31st Decemeber during watchnight to acknowledge how God has been faithful to His church and His people. Thank YOU for everything =)

In all your ways (in every single area of your life), acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.

Proverbs 3;5-6

Happy tuesday!

Merry Christmas! thanks OJ and Lisa. (Its not just the packaging that is classy

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A glimpse of. . . .

My room and my life is in a mess.

But in a good kind of mess.

Room’s messy because I am working on my christmas project. Plus, my intership has started. So I don’t really have the energy to keep my room clean and tidy. They just have to be functional at the moment till I figured I can’t stand the mess.

Life’s in a mess because I am all over the place. I am getting more confuse by the day. I guess this is the season for me to slow it down and embrace what life has got to offer and most of all, what I can offer to others. I don’t really have a plan or strategy on how things are going to be like in the future. I am just enjoying the little thing in life.

But I trust that God is going to turn this ‘mess’ into something really beautiful.

Will come up with a proper update another time.

Tired.

Night world =)

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I see Red!

Gooood morning! December is approaching and this only means one thing!

CHRISTMASSSS!!

I was even more busy after my exams than during. So much to do, but so lil time. Went to Ikea alone lately. Supposed to go with a few friends but ended up, I went alone. Which is fine too. Managed to do what i want to do there.

(and I don’t mean taking these random photos below)

Wore red to match the deco! you'll see. . . .

Lots pf prezzies wrapped and hung on the wall. Decided to get something but din have enough time to make any purchases.

Paper plates with a touch of christmas=)

Big Mug for coffee lovers! speaking of coffee, I feel like a 'Starbucks' day today!wheeeee

. . . and more reds. . .

. . .more random decorations. . .

Spend approximately two hours at Papier to buy materials. No inspiration, thats why took two hours to wait for it to come. I am serious. But it came after that =)

some of the things i ended up buying for a wedding gift. For more photos on this intriguing gift, go to www.joielorraine.wordpress.com

Then I made my way to Jaya 1 to cut my hair! yesss again! and its much shorter now! but well, it feeeeeels sooooo goooooood to trim off the edges. I think I look better in short? I don’t know.

ta-dah!

So many things to look forward to. So many more things in my list of to-dos. I wish I have all the time, to do everything I want to do. I wish the same for you=)

Have a nothing but an amazing weekend =)

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I got it!

God closed so many other doors and suddenly flung one big one at me. I knew He would. I was at peace. I understood what it means to wait on Him. It was as easy as 1, 2 and 3 to just leave it in the hands of your Heavenly Father. I wish I could trust Him just as much as I did in every other areas of my life.

I think I have been selective when it comes to trusting God.

Segregated trust.

Hmmmmmm.

Not by might, nor by power but by His holy spirit.

More than words could express. Still very much in the mode of appreciation and gratitude.

Please allow me to learn.

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The things I need to do (updated)

1. Finalize all the stuff and start making nametags for YLDP.

2. Work on my session with Rachel. Our very first time handling a workshop.

3. Serving 4x next month. Can’t wait for Christmas and Watchnight service.

4. Pray harder for internship openings while waiting for replies.

5. Come up with sponsorship & budget and continue to refine my ideas for UWE Charity Night’s entry passes.

6. HSBC proposal for business plan competition.

7. Report and Presentation for Loreal Brandstorm.

8. A business proposal and registration.

9. Go to Ikea, Sunflower and Papier.

10. Search for inspiration for N’s wedding card.

11. Think of a range of Christmas card designs. Theme colour?

12. Spend more time with God.

13. Finish my finals?

(striking off means done! =)

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When our hopes are sorely tested

It began to rain. It rained and it rained.

‘Is it going to rain all day?’

I asked myself as I looked outside while thinking of how stupid one can get for doing their laundry on a rainy day. The initial thunders and lightning weren’t going to prevent me from completing my task. Stupidity  has always been intrinsically linked to stubbornness.

Anway, the rain became more insistent and so was my feeling turning as gray as the clouds could get. I look out the window again and a pout decorated my face.

It is official, I am mildly depressed.

I suspect this has got very little to do with my finals which is starting tomorrow.

Church was good last weekend. I always loved stories about Sarah and Abraham and how God has gone out to test their faith. When our hopes are sorely tested as theirs were, would we run the risk of becoming indifferent? I am already beginning to feel like that.

I took some time off to deviate myself from all the examination stress. One could tell I don’t deal with stress all that well. On this rainy day, once again I shamelessly go to God, telling Him how I feel and how things are on my side. Not that He doesn’t know, in fact he knows exactly how I am feeling, even better than myself.

Tired, sad and depressed,  I resigned to my old self. I was determined at some point that I’ll never come out from this vicious cycle. It somehow doesn’t matter anymore if God was to answer my prayer. But to my credit, I really do trust in Him.

I am just not good with this whole ‘timing’ thing. My problem is the constant unwillingness to wait for God. This really frustrates me as each second passes. Am i willing to relinquish my request, removing my will out of the agenda and allow God to work in my life?

“God is always on time!” I gave up as I let out a loud sigh. There is this deep nagging feeling telling me that it was worth every minute of the wait. Why worry about tomorrow when you faith is on solid rock?

Such a foolish and useless endeavour, don’t you think?

“I am thankful for the rain” I mumbled as I smile to myself on the way out of my house, couple of rain drops drizzled in my eyes and got my pretty hair wet. A few raindrops wouldn’t hurt anyone. I was predictably feeling better again.

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Drum rollssssss!

I know this is late. I just never thought of mentioning them here. Anyway, here’s the link to my other blog where I post and write about my creation. Seriously, its nothing amazing but I just thought I wanna share my joy with you.  So actually, nothing is ever too late =)

Let me know what you think =)

www.joielorraine.wordpress.com

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