I see Red!

Gooood morning! December is approaching and this only means one thing!

CHRISTMASSSS!!

I was even more busy after my exams than during. So much to do, but so lil time. Went to Ikea alone lately. Supposed to go with a few friends but ended up, I went alone. Which is fine too. Managed to do what i want to do there.

(and I don’t mean taking these random photos below)

Wore red to match the deco! you'll see. . . .

Lots pf prezzies wrapped and hung on the wall. Decided to get something but din have enough time to make any purchases.

Paper plates with a touch of christmas=)

Big Mug for coffee lovers! speaking of coffee, I feel like a 'Starbucks' day today!wheeeee

. . . and more reds. . .

. . .more random decorations. . .

Spend approximately two hours at Papier to buy materials. No inspiration, thats why took two hours to wait for it to come. I am serious. But it came after that =)

some of the things i ended up buying for a wedding gift. For more photos on this intriguing gift, go to www.joielorraine.wordpress.com

Then I made my way to Jaya 1 to cut my hair! yesss again! and its much shorter now! but well, it feeeeeels sooooo goooooood to trim off the edges. I think I look better in short? I don’t know.

ta-dah!

So many things to look forward to. So many more things in my list of to-dos. I wish I have all the time, to do everything I want to do. I wish the same for you=)

Have a nothing but an amazing weekend =)

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I got it!

God closed so many other doors and suddenly flung one big one at me. I knew He would. I was at peace. I understood what it means to wait on Him. It was as easy as 1, 2 and 3 to just leave it in the hands of your Heavenly Father. I wish I could trust Him just as much as I did in every other areas of my life.

I think I have been selective when it comes to trusting God.

Segregated trust.

Hmmmmmm.

Not by might, nor by power but by His holy spirit.

More than words could express. Still very much in the mode of appreciation and gratitude.

Please allow me to learn.

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The things I need to do (updated)

1. Finalize all the stuff and start making nametags for YLDP.

2. Work on my session with Rachel. Our very first time handling a workshop.

3. Serving 4x next month. Can’t wait for Christmas and Watchnight service.

4. Pray harder for internship openings while waiting for replies.

5. Come up with sponsorship & budget and continue to refine my ideas for UWE Charity Night’s entry passes.

6. HSBC proposal for business plan competition.

7. Report and Presentation for Loreal Brandstorm.

8. A business proposal and registration.

9. Go to Ikea, Sunflower and Papier.

10. Search for inspiration for N’s wedding card.

11. Think of a range of Christmas card designs. Theme colour?

12. Spend more time with God.

13. Finish my finals?

(striking off means done! =)

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When our hopes are sorely tested

It began to rain. It rained and it rained.

‘Is it going to rain all day?’

I asked myself as I looked outside while thinking of how stupid one can get for doing their laundry on a rainy day. The initial thunders and lightning weren’t going to prevent me from completing my task. Stupidity  has always been intrinsically linked to stubbornness.

Anway, the rain became more insistent and so was my feeling turning as gray as the clouds could get. I look out the window again and a pout decorated my face.

It is official, I am mildly depressed.

I suspect this has got very little to do with my finals which is starting tomorrow.

Church was good last weekend. I always loved stories about Sarah and Abraham and how God has gone out to test their faith. When our hopes are sorely tested as theirs were, would we run the risk of becoming indifferent? I am already beginning to feel like that.

I took some time off to deviate myself from all the examination stress. One could tell I don’t deal with stress all that well. On this rainy day, once again I shamelessly go to God, telling Him how I feel and how things are on my side. Not that He doesn’t know, in fact he knows exactly how I am feeling, even better than myself.

Tired, sad and depressed,  I resigned to my old self. I was determined at some point that I’ll never come out from this vicious cycle. It somehow doesn’t matter anymore if God was to answer my prayer. But to my credit, I really do trust in Him.

I am just not good with this whole ‘timing’ thing. My problem is the constant unwillingness to wait for God. This really frustrates me as each second passes. Am i willing to relinquish my request, removing my will out of the agenda and allow God to work in my life?

“God is always on time!” I gave up as I let out a loud sigh. There is this deep nagging feeling telling me that it was worth every minute of the wait. Why worry about tomorrow when you faith is on solid rock?

Such a foolish and useless endeavour, don’t you think?

“I am thankful for the rain” I mumbled as I smile to myself on the way out of my house, couple of rain drops drizzled in my eyes and got my pretty hair wet. A few raindrops wouldn’t hurt anyone. I was predictably feeling better again.

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Drum rollssssss!

I know this is late. I just never thought of mentioning them here. Anyway, here’s the link to my other blog where I post and write about my creation. Seriously, its nothing amazing but I just thought I wanna share my joy with you.  So actually, nothing is ever too late =)

Let me know what you think =)

www.joielorraine.wordpress.com

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That is all I need. Nothing else.

I was supposed to be on my bed an hour ago. Hooked on Michael W. Smith song ‘Grace’. It really soothes the soul as I do my quiet time. Lately, I realised I have been trying very hard to keep myself busy with things and the people around me. Not exactly a good thing because towards the end of the day, all you wanna do is snuggle up, cry and drown in your own pool of thoughts that leave you even more tired than the day before. They said reflection is good. For me, its a painful process. Reflection to me is like drilling a hole deep down into the root of my aching heart. Its painful. It hurts but its necessary.

I had a very intimate time with God tonight. I had quite a night at Starbucks and I thought I’d learn to quieten myself down before God and develop a peaceful attitude before I hit the bed each time. I tried by first filling my mind with wholesome thoughts and then read the bible. Each night, my desire is to be close to Him and we both know that this doesnt require much conversation. Sometimes there are so many things I wan to say but most of the time, I could not yield a single word. This is when I pray God hears and feels my every heartbeat. . . . . . .

With some soft music playing in the background and the next thing I know, I was worshiping Him right there in my room feeling crappy over certain situations that seems so bleak. I am fully aware of lousy I am as His daughter. So many nights I went to bed bitter and feeling like the world owes me ( how the chinese people would say). I think He is not very proud of my attitude because I sure am not proud of myself.

As I sat here staring at my bed sight lamp, the only source of light at the moment, I came to see how God is my only light. The light to my path. I am tired of my own doings that causes me nothing but trouble. I am tired struggling with Him. I am busy lighting my own path forgetting that God is lighting a super large torchlight at me (ignore the lousy metaphor) and all I need to do is to put out my own, and follow His.

Tonight, all I want is to get lost in the His embrace. That is all I need. Nothing else.

Let me.

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I suddenly feel creative

Happy birthday =)

I would love to show you all the the rest of the photos I took of the card but I can’t. That’’s because the recipient hasn’t recieved it yet. Personally, I think its really beautiful. Purple and green. Reminded me so much of Barney actually.

oh, back to market analysis. . . .=(

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Grace

Can't wait for Christmas

I was lost when you found me here
You pulled me close and held me near
And I’m a fool but still you love
I’ll be your fool for the king of love

He gave me wings so I could fly
And gave me a song to color the sky
And all I have is all from you
And all I want is all of you

It’s grace, grace
I’m nothing without you
Grace, your grace
Shines on me

And there’ve been days when I’ve walked away
Too much to carry
Nothing left to say
Forgive me Lord when I’m weak and lost
You traded heaven for a wooden cross

And all these years you’ve carried me
You’ve been my eyes when I could not see
And beauty grows in the driving rain
Your oil of gladness in the times of pain

Mchael W. Smith

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It is not too late

Massive headache.

Nothing new to me. The pain is so bad that I can hardly close my eyes and go to bed with it. Had to pop two panadols and go online while waiting for the drugs to work. Not that I have trouble sleeping these days but I once had a taste of insomnia and gosh, its torture!

Someone called me evil. Maybe I am. I can be blunt at times. Thats because I wasn’t always careful with the words i use hence causing others to feel that I can be quite quarrelsome. I am straight-forward. Never wanting to beat around the bushes in order to get what I want but ended up causing others to get upset. I am quick to decide. In other words, I may appear to be very domineering hence causing me to feel like a tyrant.

Evil. Blunt. Quarrelsome. Straight-forward. Quick to decide. Domineering.

I know what I want.

I can be quite handful.

I sometimes wish I am somewhat different.

Its a journey.

I need to get going.

I need my milk and oreo.

and maybe House.

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Good morning!

Less than 15 days to Finals. I can do it. I know this semester is going to be different. I am a smart girl. I know what i want. and i will strive to achieve it. I can do all things in Him who gives me the strength. Amen! Off i go to the library.

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happy 30th Jeremy Cheong!

Happy birthday koR!

This is my brother.  He is 30 today! But he doesnt look a day older than 25. hehehe!

Happy blessesd 30th kor! Can’t wait to see you and the rest end of this year =)

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Haven’t met you yet

You know there are some songs when you listen to them, they just make you wanna dance and lose yourself?Well this is one, that really made my Sunday. It was on the radio this morning. The tune just makes you wanna smile and gosh, i feel silly already for smiling so much=).

This is going to be my ‘Sunday’ song at the moment.

la la la. . .la la la. . .

To those out there who is single and enjoying life, this song is for you =). May your November be the start of many beautiful things to come =)

p/s: Banana leaf  lunch was great with you girls. Lets do it again! =)

Haven’t Met You Yet lyrics

I’m not surprised,
Not everything lasts,
I’ve broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out,
I get all worked up,
Then I let myself down,

I tried so very hard not to loose it;
I came up with a million excuses,
I thought I thought of every possibility,

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out,
You’ll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get~ mmm…….
I just haven’t met you yet.

Mmmmm ….

I might have to wait,
I’ll never give up,
I guess it’s half timin’, and the other half’s luck,
Wherever you are,
Whenever it’s right,
You’ll come outta nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazin’,
And baby your love is gonna change me,
And now I can see every possibility, mmmmmm….

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out,
You’ll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid, I’ll give so much more than I get, mmmm….
I just haven’t met you yet.

They say all’s fair
in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it,
we’ll get it right an’,
we’ll be united

Instrumental

and I know that we can be so amazin’,
And bein’ in your life is gonna change me,
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmmmm

And someday I know it’ll all turn out,
And I’ll work to work it out,
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Oh, you know it’ll all turn out,
and you’ll make me work so we can work to work it out,
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get, yeah
I just haven’t met you yet.

I just haven’t met you yet,
Oh, promise you kid,
To give so much more than I get.

I said love love love love love love love…..
I just haven’t met you yet
Love love love …..
So doy day ay ay ay, ay ay yeah
I just haven’t met you yet!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AJmKkU5POA

=)

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